Kill your Darlings was fucking beautiful.

Apparently, I have a weakness for intelligent characters who write and drink and go down the path of realizing a literary revolution by tearing down conventions and every single value traditional institutions sanctify. I love to see them creating something new, joyful, authentic. I want to see them set the world on fire. I want to see them shock and appall people who have long forgotten what life is all about. I love to be captivated and inspired by that, inspired to be creative myself but above all, to live, to squeeze out every tiny bit of life of a seemingly monotonous everyday life. To ‘suck out the marrow of life’. I don’t care how cliché it sounds because I it has an immense emotional impact on me. That’s the reason why ‘Dead Poets Society’ is one of my favorite movies of all time. And even though the movie’s plot is quite different, there are a lot of parallels theme wise.

I’m not gonna lie, it took me a while to stop seeing the boy who lived and start being able to perceive a young Allen Ginsberg starting his college life in Columbia. The university is quite like the boy’s school in Dead Poets Society: ruled by old grumpy men who want to teach nothing but conformity and traditional standards and poems which follow a certain scheme and ‘proper’ language and all of that utterly boring and depressing stuff. As a poet, of course I was able to see myself in Ginsberg being dragged into a colorful world of obsession and adventure and paradigm shifts and freedom and mind-expanding drugs by no one less than the incredibly charismatic and mysterious and obviously mesmerizing Lucien Carr. I loved to see the literary references but also the references to real people.

The movie is based on a real story that took place in the 1940s between Allen Ginsberg, Jack Keroac and Lucien Carr who murdered someone all of the guys knew. It gets so intense and tragic at times and the movie never failed to hold my attention. It was pretty interesting to see a part of Ginsberg’s life and the hour of birth of the Beat Generation realized cinematically. It is directed by John Krokidas and pretty impressive for a debut work! The script, the music, the shots, the colors, every little piece of this work of art supports the emotions that are supposed to be evoked at certain scenes perfectly.

I’m listening to the soundtrack constantly and I definitely got motivated to read, write and do more research on the guys and some of their works. This one definitely surprised me positively, absolutely recommendable!